Dwelling in my past?

I never forget you care for me, and i never will, but these problems i have are not you problems they are not something you have to fix for me... whats wrong with me dwelling in the past anyways? i never told you that you have to be there for me when i fall ALL THE TIME... this is something i HAVE to continue dwelling in or i might just forget the event that has changed my life... you can continue to think that i have no happiness or i lose it when i get upset or angry but your wrong... when someone finds true happiness nothing can affect that and i found true happiness... it is not a job as a Girlfriend to take my burden with you you make me happy and you always will no matter what the arguement is deep inside i am so happy that i am able to talk to you this way... you are not helpless its just i am not accepting the aid right NOW give me time when the time is right i will let go thats all i can give you is that im sorry...

just waitting...

well its been one day i think not really 24 hours but yeah u get the point... well im waiting for you to wake love and i havent even slept yet... i dot know i feel like i have done so much wrong that i cant sleep because i am really thinking about it and i am hurting knowing this... but you will wake soon at 7 or 8 or later than tha might even have work... well love you *kisses*

To the one I love!

Yoshi!!!,
i know its weird me having these kind of things and i know that i would never have one of these... but i just wanted to tell u something in a different way i read all of your hmm what do u call it... ? posted events as i would say and im so sorry for everyhing i put u through adn i guess i am hurting you more than i am hurting myself and i guess there is nothing in the world that i can say to make you understand how i feel and how much i understand that i am not meant for you if i continue to hurt you with so much i put u through you continue to love me and i just cant urt you anymore i just cant... i can continue to love you but i dont know if u are just looking at those words as my love "fades away" i guess u feel like that i dont love you as much anymore... but thats not true... i guess this relationship have have caused the pain so its my fault for putting you through so muchand i guess its was my fault from the beginning and i am so confused on whst to do next. is it right for me to stay with you if it means that i will continue hurting you... no matter how much i love you i cat live life knowing i am the reason why u hate it i dont want u too feel lonely i dont want you to go through what i have gone through and i feel like that i might not be that guy who can stop making you feel lonely...you are ot the worse GF ever you have een the best thing that has happened in my life for what u help me get through no one in this world could have helped me and it is because of your "fragile heart and sensitive feelings" i could never find anything to thank you enough for what you have done at times i may seem ungratefl and at times i teel you not to care but u know what you still do and i beieve you are still strong because of that ability to continue to care even for the people who pushes you away and that is why i love you soo much because u are like me but at the same time we are completely different and i love that about us i learn so much from you, to have a kind heart, to give people a second chance, to not hold a grudge,to love someone so much that u are willing to give it your all and at times even let them go for them.i love you soo much for teaching me a different side of life to show me that it isnt about pain and about suffering and that the lesson you learn in life is not letting go but learning how to never forget about the important things and people... and u sarcificed so much for me and i never had anyone do that for me it was always me and i am so thankful that finally in 11 years of my life someone was willing to give me some thank yous for the small things i know its stupid... you know i will do anything for you remember "anything for you" and i mean it if i can do it i will... i love you so much and i have nothing to thank you with no gift or surprise can show you how much i love you and how grateful i am to have found you i have no reason to live with out you, i have no road to follow unless i follow that same path you are taking man my hand hurts from typig and playing FF3 and its soo early 12:26 AM oh well i just couldnt sleep unless i typed this down to let you know how i feel...YOU ARE THE ONLY PERSON WHO TRULY MAKES ME HAPPY WITHOUT YOU I LOSE MY SENSE OF DIRECTION AND MY REASON TO LIVE WITH ALL THE PAIN I PUT U THROUGH I AM SORRY AND IF I COULD I WOULD TAKE ALL THAT PAIN YOU HAVE RECIEVED AND SCAR MY BODY FOR EACH ONE TO REMIND ME WHAT I HAVE PUT YOU THROUGH AND TO REMIND ME THAT NO MATTER HOW MUCH I AM HURTING IT URTS YOU 10 TIMES MORE I LOVE YOU... YOU WILL BE THE ONE I MARRY THE ONE WHO I WILL SPEND MY LIFE WITH AND NO ONE CAN TAKE YOUR PLACE...AND DONT FORGET U ARE BEARING MY TWINS MAYU AND MIO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WITH THE GIFT OF MY HEART, BODY AND SOUL YOU HAVE ME AND ALWAYS WILL SHARON AND NO ONE CAN TAKE THAT AWAY FROM YOU!